|By Nellie Edwards at PaintedFaith.com|
“Hey Mark, we’re going to have another baby,” I announced to my husband after taking a home pregnancy test. We looked at each other, wide-eyed. We had recently added an orphan boy from Kenya, so we were already a family of eleven. We shared a strong understanding that each little soul is a gift from God that will last an eternity. Still, I’d be forty-seven and Mark forty-eight when this baby was due.
As we adjusted to the news, I discovered that our willingness to accept new life led us closer to God. Instead of thinking of things like money, opinions of others, and our advanced age, we accepted this as a gift. New life had begun and would forever be a part of our family.
Just the previous week, my eight-year-old daughter Teresa, had expressed hope that I would have another baby. When I pointed out that older women did not usually have babies, she reminded me that Elizabeth was older when she had John the Baptist. I just smiled and said: “You never know.”
Well, now we knew. The kids were ecstatic. Then, at three months, I miscarried for the first time. I had some early warnings, so by the time it happened, it was not a surprise. The enormity of the loss did not really hit me until I was alone at morning Mass a couple days later. Earlier, I had requested that our kids ask God to let us know the sex of the baby. Our oldest, Aaron, suggested I give it a unisex name and leave it at that. “I would really like to know who it was,” I explained, “so please ask God to somehow let us know.”
It was just before Mass, two days after the miscarriage, that I suddenly felt a deep sense of knowing that the baby had been a boy—Matthew. We chose that name to go with our Mark, Luke, and John, members of the family. Realizing we had a son suddenly filled me with a deep awareness that my very own child was with God now. I knew there was no greater place to be but still, a maternal sadness washed over me. Our little son, Matthew, was our only baby that we did not get to hold in our arms.
I felt sad but was filled with peace that I had a son in heaven. Then, after Mass, before leaving for home, the thought occurred to me that although I was convinced the baby was a boy, other family members (especially the teens) might say: “Mom, you really don’t know for sure.”
I sent up a quick prayer.“Dear God, I accept that our son is with you now, but it would mean a lot to me if you would somehow let the others know that it's Matthew.” I wanted my husband to know his son and the children to have a relationship with a little brother in heaven.
I kept the morning’s experience to myself. Then, around an hour later, Aaron called me from Fargo, where he attended college and was living for the summer. “Mom, I’m in a big hurry, but I just wanted to call to tell you I know the baby was a boy.”
Aaron had dreamed two nights in a row about a baby. In the first dream, a baby had died but he was confused. The next night, the dream picked up where it had left off. He looked down at the baby, and suddenly knew it was his little brother. In the dream he looked at me and we nodded at one another in understanding.
|Our family a couple years later; 3 are married now|
There was no time to talk, however, because Aaron was in a hurry to participate in a study, which paid very good money to college students. We said good-bye and I learned the rest of the story later.
Aaron arrived at the study site only minutes after our conversation. By all rights, he should have been disqualified during the screening because his heart started racing when his pulse was taken. Since, the study had been overbooked, they were looking for any reason to start bumping students. Aaron knew from experience that an above-normal heart rate was a typical factor used to bump students. It was Aaron’s nervousness that caused his fast heart rate but he could not get himself to calm down. In high school, he usually had the lead in plays and the same thing would happen just before the production got under way.
Aaron began asking his little brother, Matthew, to help him. He really needed the money for expenses. His pulse was taken two more times, each time measuring faster than the previous rate.
It seemed hopeless. The study director looked at him and then at the nurse beside him who was recording the results. “Please Matthew,” Aaron prayed, “Please help me get into this study.” But Aaron braced himself, waiting to be told he was dismissed. There’s no way, now, he thought.
Looking into Aaron's eyes, the director paused and then stated quietly to the nurse:“Let him in.” The nurse registered surprise. She opened her mouth as if to protest but then quickly followed the doctor as they went on to the next participant.
A euphoric disbelief and awe filled Aaron’s heart. It seemed impossible. He was in! And it was his little brother that had pulled strings from heaven [The next year we did become a family of 12 by taking in the brother of our adopted son from Kenya.]
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